~Shall i?~

Just found out that, 'happy' and 'sad' is actually tied up together...
Once u crossed the line, u shall be happy or the other way...
Something that u shall be happy on,
might turned into emo-ing mood...

Shall i be happy or sad???

Currently doing research on 'psychology' of children, teenagers n adults...
n shall find ways to solve the problems of students from different angle...

n yet, i can't solve my own problems...
sometimes i hate myself for being who i'm now...
i shall let go things that is slowing down my life path...
but, i kept turning into it like a bull...

I shall just turn to the other side, n walk out from my current life...
Then, i shall live longer n happier~

n
Shall i figure out what i really 1 before i make any decision?
or shall i just be like what u said, try on everythg so that i won't regret in my future?

The thought of why m i living in this world suddenly came to my mind...
i don mean to commit suicide...
it's the thought of 'WHY?'

n yet while others say the life is challenging...
i answered them. it' what making u alive...
Make u alive to enjoy the moment u facing problems n most importantly the moment u managed to solve the problems...

so.... what m i thking when i asking myself 'why'?
no 1 in this world would know except for myself...
n yet, i'm still figuring it out...

N at this moment,
i shall actually be happy... Grateful n thankful...
as what i always wish is happening...

But, i found that when i shall be happy,
feels of frustration will appear... gahhhhh
or maybe it's the time for me to make a real decision...

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Have u ever hated some1 very much?
thousands of faces appeared in my mind when a person asked me this...
i cant sort out any1...

maybe, the person who asked me this shall not use the term'hated?'
i don reali hate but dislike... lol

i dislike some of my frens or people around me....
but now, i'm starting to figure out their 'angel' faces as i get along with them...

psychology is indeed a very good field to go into...
as u'll get to c this world clearer...
i enrolled a psychology one-day course for RM200...
but it is changed to 7 June (originally middle of July)...
i was thking, will my enrollment fees get forfeited if i wanted to quit?
coz i'm having my F5 final exam on 8June...
praying hard now~ = (

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recently, i'm busy k-ing my books n notes...
final exam is coming soon...
=(

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gahhhh!!!
my mind is getting mixed up now...
i shall get a good rest...

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Oh yea...
'high respected - team members' are thirsty now...
bkful~~
they might hiding somewhr waiting u to treat them sth to drink... lol

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i shall go to bed now... tata

sry~ it's another messy post...